The is no relationship in the world like the one you have with your mother. Sometimes, she is your best friend, sometimes your enemy but usually somewhere in between.
My mom was the person who was there for me at my worst and she was the person I celebrated with me at my best. My mother was everything to me.
I miss her and losing her was the absolute worst thing to ever happen to me. And that is saying a lot, because I have been through a whole lot. Nothing in the world could compare to the day I realized I could no longer lie in her arms and that is one I will never forget.
With every single day that passes, I miss her more than the day before. With every new beginning and ending, every milestone for my children and me, I desperately crave for her love, encouragement and her support. There is no one that can ever replace her.
And with each day, I try to pick up the pieces of my life without her. For once, my life is where it is should be. I am happier than I have ever been. I am doing well in both my writing and legal careers. My kids are doing great and they are happy and healthy. And I have let go of people who made my happiness harder.
But some days, I feel alone without my mother and that feeling is the most devastating in the world. I know that there are so many others who live with this same pain and so many more who will.
I know my mother lives inside me. After all, she raised me to be the woman I am today. And while sometimes, I wish I wasn’t walking alone, I know that I am doing fine and she is looking down on me with pride. She may not agree with all my choices, but she knows I am strong, resilient, and smart and that I will always do the right thing.
And even though she is not here to support me and cheer me, she is still my biggest fan. She still has a front row to my accomplishments. She is further away but she is still with me.
I am lucky to have my mother for as long as I did. And missing her is hard and sometimes, it takes all I have when things get to tough to move forward without her. But I do it every single day and despite how much I miss her and how much I ache inside for her presence.
If you are lucky enough to have your mom still around, don’t take it for granted. Call her, visit her, pick up the phone when she calls, listen to her, and remind her how important she is too you. You won’t know how truly blessed you are to have her around until she is gone. Don’t take her for granted today because tomorrow might be too late.