In a couple hours, it will be a New Year. With that said, most have started to think about what we are leaving behind and setting resolutions for the upcoming year. I definitely have pondered what I am leaving behind and what I am looking forward to.
2015 was a major year of growth for me. I struggled to remove a lot of toxicity from my life. I felt the urge to reboot, to start over, and stop putting up with crap and living life on my own terms. It didn’t come easy and I had obstacles and people in my way. But I was tired of what people put me through and what was expected of me. I started to see myself without insecurity and the burdens that had been for many years placed on me.
I finally decided that I had to see myself as the person that God sees me as – pure, simple, and good. I choose to forgive and I did. I didn’t ask for or want forgiveness. The Universe forced my hand and I had to decide whether I would continue to suffer and struggle or to find my own way. It was God that I reached to in my darkest hour. I saw my advantage. The Almighty had never given up on me. He was there when I was on my knees praying and even when I was wasn’t.
For once, I choose to be the woman God wants me to be. I also choose to be grateful and focused on what was important. And I struggled, and I had set backs but I kept going even when there were obstacles. In 2015, I also elected to be less self-sacrificing and a little selfless.
I may not be where I want to be or where I expect to be but I am where I need to be. I am Mom to two amazing boys and I wouldn’t trade that for anything. I am doing well in my career and I have had published well over 125 chronic illness articles and five guides about living with illness. I am still working on that work of fiction but paying bills takes precedent.
I am keeping an open mind about love and I am working on being the best version of me. And I am going to continue to do just that.
I took a leap a faith today. I don’t know what is going to happen but it was out of my character. I am glad I did it and regardless of the result, I won’t have regrets.
I don’t know what 2016 has in store for me but I am going to continue to focus on my life and my children’s lives. I am going to continue to keep toxic people out of our lives and to keep living life on my terms. I am tired of trying to make everyone happy. I deserve to be happy and I am focused on that from this point forward.
Happy New Year and hopefully 2016 is filled with much happiness, good health and kind people, for all of you.