I have not blogged here in a while. A few of you have emailed and asked if everything is okay. I have been quite busy. Things are going great and sometimes, I think when things are well, we have a tendency not to the sure the good stuff.
I did have a bad flare recently and I am still dealing with a recent sinus infection. That is because my immune system really sucks. This last one was a fibromyalgia muscle flare. It was pure torture but like always, I bounce back stronger than ever. But otherwise, everything is going well.
Career-wise, everything has been going well. I have had well over 100 articles published and 4 treatment guides. I am still working on my book but it is kind of half way there. It would nice to land a publisher next year. My job is going well and I really love it. I have a couple great bosses who respect my need for independence and it has worked out pretty well for all of us.
The boys are doing well. My little one turned 7 today and is in 2nd grade now. My teenager is a sophomore now and he is doing well in school. He will getting his driver’s license soon. The rough patches from last year are behind us. Now, I can say he is a typical teenager. My girls are doing well too and I talk to them often and I am grateful that they are back in my life. Hopefully, they will live close soon.
I am finally out of the hurdles that I dealt with towards the end of last year. For a while, it felt like I was drowning because of the choices I made, then I was barely staying above water, but I can finally say I am past that all. I did what I always do – get up, dust myself off, and get down to business. It was my mess and my choices, and I took responsibility to clean it up.
I have come to a point in my life where I am content with who I am and I am moving forward. I still have some things I’d like to change but they are out of my control. I have chosen to keep the toxicity out of my life and it has been good for me. I choose to be kind even when I shouldn’t. Mostly, it is because I am tired of conflict and also, because the stress is not good for me.
I look back at my life and my struggles, and they always circled around what I thought was expected of me. I no longer care about what anyone thinks about me or my choices. At the end of the day, I answer to the Highest Power, and I am choosing to make the best of this life He has given me. Every day, the Almighty shows me what a fighter and survivor I am. I trust the Almighty because without Him, I wouldn’t be able to raise these two boys alone. One day, they will be men and it won’t be because of everyone who thinks they are well meaning, it will be because God was by my side through it all.
Sometimes, I wonder why this world won’t leave me alone, and then I look at my kids, and nothing matters but them. We all have anger but I wouldn’t be a good health advocate if I didn’t try to see past my own hurt and anger. My late brother was always so happy. He was always full of life, always smiling, laughing and singing. There wasn’t anything special about his life. It was just the perspective he took. I try to remember that when life gets me down.
And the only thing missing in my life will come soon enough. I know what I want and need, and I know what is best for my kids and me. I have had my entire adult life to figure it out. And for once, I am choosing not to let anyone dictate my choices.
Thank you for those who have checked in. You are in my thoughts and prayers as well. You all are!