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One Hurdle Overcome: What is in store for me next?

 A chapter in my life closed yesterday.  It was the chapter that involved financial discord and it finally came to an end. I thought I would either laugh or cry when I found out but I am too numb to feel anything.  That issue dominated nearly three years of my life.  Three years while I was starting to deal with a life with chronic illness, then my brother getting sick and passing away, and so much more.  That issue was a dominating factor in my life so long that I never expected it to end.  Maybe the effects will be felt tomorrow when I smile at my accomplishment or when I cry because I am happy or maybe I will never respond.

I think that the reason for the lack of joy is that I know that when I overcome one hurdle, another one comes to replace it.  Isn’t it funny how life works out? I always tell people that God really gets me with these hurdles because with every single one, he makes me better, wiser and older. I think I know what the next chapter is but I am not sure about that.  The next thing I need to do is something I am initiating but like with anything else, I don’t know what the outcome or the journey will be.  At the same token, the trial will be in how the journey evolves so I suppose that even though I initiate it, it will still be God’s work what happens and how I overcome.

I have been through more in the last twelve years than most people have been through their entire lives. All this time as I struggled with my relationship with the Almighty, he was by my side as I overcame some of the biggest challenges of my life.  In the beginning, it didn’t seem like God was on my side.  I doubted his presence because no matter how much I prayed, I felt like things were getting better. Looking back now and with my faith stronger than ever – I know that if not for God I would not have gotten through all those tough times.  All those times I thought God wasn’t listening, he was there making me stronger than I ever imagined.  God’s faith in me has always been big and now my faith in the Almighty is big.  I know that with God by my side, I can overcome so much and through those experiences, my faith is strengthened and so is my will.

What is next in store? I don’t know.  I just know that life has taught me to be patient no matter what I am handled.  For example, I had a doctor’s appointment last week and I found out that there may be something big that I may have to worry about.  I am getting some more tests next week and in all honesty, I am scared.  My kids and I have been through so much in the past few years and we can use a moment where our lives are not spinning in circles.  I finally recovered from my injuries from last year’s car accident and my RA is tolerable.  This financial mess has been neutralized and I have learned to deal with the grief of losing my brother.  I asked “why now” more times than I needed to.  In the end, I realized that I would just take things as they come and I would pray for the best.  God is listening and he will help me to get through whatever challenge lies ahead.  For now, I will just take the current peace in my life has a sign of good things to come.


4 thoughts on “One Hurdle Overcome: What is in store for me next?

    1. Hi Rachel! Thanks for coming by. Yes, I am definately relieved but I am glad that I have overcome and learned alot from this experince.

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