Yesterday, I was feeling unusually depressed. Living with chronic pain, depressed moods are a part of life. In addition, I was dealing with the stress of whether my landlord would provide a good reference so that I could get the place I wanted. Lo and behold, I was approved and I am not asking how or why. I signed the lease last night and it is time for me to start packing. I also picked up some boxes and started planning.
Yesterday, I also got a phone call from my younger sister who lives in NYC. Her apartment building burned down on Monday afternoon. Her husband was home with the kids when an electrical fire started just out of the blue. She wasn’t home and fortunately, everyone made it out unharmed. Now living with various friends and family, she is trying to make sense of everything that has happened. She is trying to find a bright side and while that bright side is that her family is safe, it is hard to say that to someone who has lost their home and all their possessions. I reminded her that God only will only impose a burden we can bear and told her that my home is open if she wants to get into her car and start driving. Aside from offering her place and helping her with other basic necessities, I want to do more and I am not sure what more I can do. That feeling of displacement is the hardest thing anyone can go through. Trust me, I have been there – more than once.
Please keep my sister and her family in your thoughts and prayers. Please ask God to give her the strength to bear this trial as right now this is her biggest adversary. What she is yet to realize is that she has been through worse and this is a bump in the road that she will get past soon enough. Right now, it is hard for her to see past the loss she has faced but what she doesn’t realize that everything else is material and can be rebuilt. What she didn’t lose in that fire is more valuable than anything she lost. Her loved ones are safe and a month from now she will wonder how she got through this.
So I woke up yesterday feeling really depressed and her news made me even more depressed. I am relieved that her family is safe but I wish I was close by so that I can offer something – anything. My family is made up tough women so I know that she will get through this. We have been through worse and we have endured and persevered. When someone goes through something like this, all of a sudden your problems seem so small.
For my family, every day is a gift. Things like this are reminders that we are alive and well. I am not sure how to get my sister to see that while she is dealing with this. However, I can see her months from now looking back and knowing that she had the courage all along. The women in my family are strength and resourceful. I am the biggest example of that. I have been through a lot more than most people and I have endured. My mother has a lifetime of endurance and perseverance. My cousin is a three time cancer survivor and she just keeps going. My other sister is a Hodgkin’s survivor who had a child after she was told it was impossible. The women in my family are stronger than the men and that is how I know my sister will get through this.
My last epidural steroid injection went well. I healed from it quickly and saw pain relief right away. I still have to do one for my lower back but I need to put that off for a while as there are things are pretty hectic now. I remember when I was struggling with the first few months after the accident and how I didn’t know how long I can handle the pain but I endured and I am in a lot better place than I was six months ago. I have been through a lot in the past year and now my sister is struggling with something, and I am offering her the same advice she offered me. Just keep going – everything will work out.
Thank you for taking the time to read this and for offering your prayers. If you know anyone in the Brooklyn/Coney Island area that can help them get back on their feet, the reference would be greatly appreciated. I cannot imagine that they willl be going back to their apartment as that needs time to get fixed. They are going to start looking for new place and they will have to start all over again.