Lately, I have been feeling down and I can’t put on my hand on why. I know that I am not depressed but I just find myself feeling sad for no apparent reason. For the first time in nearly two years, I have been having some long pain-free or low pain periods. You would think that I wouldn’t be in such a down mood but I am.
I find myself stressed out more than usual and losing my temper over petty things. This morning I found myself stressed because my ten year old was trying to rush out of house because they have state achievement testing this week, and my toddler was not being cooperative. Where was my husband during this chaotic morning? He was supposedly sleeping and pretending to ignore all the chaos. If he has not already left for work in the morning, he usually ignores what I have to endure.
What is it about lazy husbands? I know I am not the only one. The roles of men and women today are much different than those of our parents. However, the U.S. Bureau of Statistics reports that working mothers spend twice as much time doing household chores and taking care of their children than do their husbands.
There is no point in anyone trying to advise me on changing my husband, because I have gotten blue in the face trying. The fact is my husband knows how much harder I work than he does and he isn’t bothered by it so I can either turn our lives in a constant battle everyday or I can just whine and complain when I have had enough. This second way is better for my blood pressure and it keeps my marriage in tact.
This morning I did a great job keeping it together even after I realized I had the wrong set of keys and my toddler sat in the mud after we walked out the front door. I found the right keys and changed my toddler without strangling my husband who was pretending he was not hearing any of the chaos that was happening. Oh, what I would give to be that carefree!
I dropped my toddler off at daycare and my ten year old at school (because by that point, the daycare bus had left for the school drop-off). Despite, all this chaos, I sat in my car and just smiled. As chaotic as my life is, I wouldn’t trade it for a less chaotic one.
Then, adding to my melancholy mood, Toby Keith came on the radio with “I’ll Never Smoke Weed With Willie Again,” and I sang along wishing Willie would invite me on his bus.
I know how much I feel down and it is not because I am unhappy with my life. It is because I am stressed and tired and that is what it is like for every working mother with or without the added burden of RA and FMS. If anyone hears from Willie Nelson, let him know that I am waiting for his call to tell me when he will be in town.