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Past Lives

I often believe that I was a philosopher in a past life. I did a past life analysis at and these were the results. Ironically, they were pretty close.

Your past life diagnosis:
I don’t know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation. You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Yugoslavia around the year 1250. Your profession was that of a chemist, alchemist or poison manufacturer.
Your brief psychological profile in your past life:

You were a sane, practical person, a materialist with no spiritual consciousness. Your simple wisdom helped the weaker and the poor.
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Your lesson is to conquer jealousy and anger in yourself and then in those who will select you as their guide. You should understand that these weaknesses are caused by fear and self-regret.
Do you remember now?

Does anyone see the truth in this? For some reason, I don’t disagree that this is who I could have been in a past life. As to the last point, I definitely see this in myself. I wish the jealousy and anger part were false but I have spent a lot of years coming to terms with who I am. I know all too well that fear and regret are weaknesses. I have always been a pretty cautious person, but I am still pretty content with the life that I have now.

Sometimes, when I sit down to blog, I wonder if there is anything else I could write about besides RA and FMS, and no matter how hard I try, my posts somehow always tie into the life I have that includes living with RA and FMS. There is so much more I wish I could do in my life, and helping others, there is a wonderful joy in that. Right now, my life resolves around my children and I wouldn’t change that. Before I know it, my boys will be all grown and I will have plenty of time on my hands to reach out and to help as best as I can. When I say things like this to my husband, he usually mumbles something like “that won’t pay the bills.” Needless to say, I usually ignore my husband’s realist approach to life, and remind myself how much I love life and giving back, that makes me love life even more.

Rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia are a part of my life, whether I like it or not. They shape my decisions and they shape and prepare me for my destiny – whatever it may be. Sometimes, I find the weight of the world and my responsibilities heavy, but that is simply part of living with chronic pain. As much as RA and FMS shape my life, they don’t think or speak for me. It saddens me to see others who are not as emotionally strong as I am and more than anything, I wish I could change that, but it is like trying to end poverty in the world – it is never ending.

In the meantime, I will have to settle for my content of who I was in my most recent past life and who I am presently. Who I am in the future is still many chapters away and you will just have to keep reading to find out.


3 thoughts on “Past Lives

  1. "Rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia are a part of my life, whether I like it or not. They shape my decisions and they shape and prepare me for my destiny – whether it may be." I really believe this Lana. We just have to be patient. Our diseases are preparing us for something that we can't yet know. In the meantime, you are doing wonders by keeping a positive attitude and sharing. Thanks for your comments the last few posts. They have helped lots. I hope we both feel some relief soon.

  2. I've never been accused of being a cautious person. lol From rock climbing and repelling, climbing water towers (remember those things?) in high school, racing mountain bikes and motorcycles. No fears and only two real regrets after 50 years so I guess I'm not too bad off. I write about my RA because it is a part of my life now. I didn't ask for it, it just showed up one day uninvited. As much as I am determined to not let RA control me, I have to admit it has definitely changed who I am. I occasionally think about what I would be doing if I didn't have RA. It is usually centered around an activity that I could break a bone/bones. lol In retrospect, maybe RA, for me, was a good thing … I've already broken 14 bones.Lana, I love the attitude that comes out in your writing and the fight that you have inside you. Don't let anyone or anything ever take that from you.

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