Monthly Archives: July 2009
Looking from the outside, you would not how much I have been through in my life. But the fact is, I have been through a lot and every day, I think that it finally is over for me – the struggling, the worrying, etc., and but it is something new every day. God tests me on a daily basis, and I am not sure I understand why. I may not be religious, but I believe in him wholeheartedly. I ask for his guidance on a daily basis and in every thing I do, no matter how routine.
The irony is despite every test I have been put through, I am still standing, and stronger than ever. Maybe, I don’t fully understand what God’s purpose for me is, but if it is about testing my strength and belief, I am still standing, stronger than ever. The last few weeks and months have tested me in ways unimaginable and I am slowly dealing with the aftermath of that testing. I have learned so much along the way about who I am and how strong I can be and who my friends and my allies are, but mostly, I have learned to appreciate the simple things in my life, things that are priceless.
I have started to focus my thinking on spiritually and religion lately because it seems to have lead me to a better understanding of the tests that have been bestowed upon me in recent weeks and months. The Book of Genesis at 22:1-2, tells us that God came to Abraham and said: “Take your son, your only son Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about!” Abraham took Isaac as instructed and prepared him for sacrifice. Just then, the Lord appeared and provided a ram for the sacrifice. Of course, none of us will ever be tested in such a manner, but indeed, we will and have been tested. I look at Abraham’s story and realize how I come so close to giving up, and then the answers and solutions come at precisely the minute I wanted to give in.
Think about all the obstacles that that come in your way while you are trying to get things done, i.e., working hard to pay your bills, care for your families, etc., and then think about the story of Joshua when he was leading the Jews to what is now Israel. They had travelled long and far and they got to the flooded Jordan River. Joshua had been instructed by God to tell the priests to go first and for the people to follow in a distance. They were to walk through the flooded river and when their feet touched the water, the water would divide so that all the people would cross. The people and the priests had two choices: they could follow the command of God or they could just stay put and live on the shore. They choose to move forward and later stories about Joshua tell us that this was the very incident that gave him courage to overcome greater obstacles.
I truly don’t understand why God tests me or any of us. I just know that I am better for it – stronger and wiser. Despite all of this recent testing, I am truly grateful for all the blessings in my life. They keep me stronger and keep me standing. So, hey God, despite everything, I am still standing.
Dale Carnegie: Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all.
Ray Bradbury: If we listened to our intellect, we’d never have a love affair. We’d never have a friendship. We’d never go into business, because we’d be too cynical. Well, that’s nonsense. You’ve got to jump off cliffs all the time and build your wings on the way down.
The baby’s latest word is “backpack” as the Dora the Explorer “Backpack” song. My nine year old is getting excited about starting fourth grade. I am finally am starting to see the rainbow in the aftermath of the storm. The last few months and weeks have tested me in ways unimaginable and there were times when I was weak. Nevertheless, I survived the storms, and I found solutions in places I never knew I would. I am finally breathing a sigh of relief, and I know that there is a still a lot of work to do.
Every storm leaves damage behind, but it is now time to clean up. Before I was just trying to brave the storm and now I am dealing with the aftermath. Despite that, I know that the clouds have cleared and that rainbow is getting closer. Every storm leaves damage behind, but once the clean up starts, the healing begins. I am finally healing.
My husband and I have had a rough year, financially and emotionally. Our marriage has been tested, as has our faith. I have prayed and sought guidance. That prayer is what has kept me strong even it I thought I was weak. I look around and I see that “we” are still standing, stronger than ever, and I never want to look back. More importantly, I have learned to avoid the mistakes that put us in the eye of the storm in the first place.
I have learned who my friends are and I learned that families are there for a purpose.
I learned that marriages can survive.
I have learned that children keep you strong.
I have learned the power of prayer and how to trust in my faith.
I have found that God hears our prayers, and he tests us from time to time.
I have learned that sometimes you have to fall in order to find the strength to get up again.
I have learned to find joy in the little things.
I have seen a weak side of myself and I have seen a strong side.
I have learned what it takes to hold a marriage together and what it takes to tear it apart.
I have learned that enemies can be allies.
I have learned to that strangers can turn out to be good friends.
I have cried and I have cursed. But I am still standing. Yes, I am and with my dignity intact.
I listened to a complete stranger tell me the hell that he has been through and how he managed to get up again. Then, I told him my story and he told me that I, too, would through this.
America has been through a rough storm in the last few years. I am not alone. I am not the only one struggling with financial difficulties even though sometimes it feels like it. I have cried, I have healed, and every day, I heal more. So tonight, I pray, not for myself, but for every man, every woman, and every family who is struggling. We will get through this.
There are storms, but there are also rainbows and the rainbows are near.
I am blogging about Murphy’s Laws today. You know: “If something can go wrong, it will.” “If anything simply cannot go wrong, it will anyway.” I have complained about Murphy’s Law before and I write again, because well, I am an expert on how things can go wrong at precisely the moment you need them to go right. Lately, Murphy’s Law refuses to leave me alone. It seems like if anything can go wrong, it will.
All I know is that Murphy’s Law should be renamed Mom’s Law and this is coming from an expert. How come five minutes after you change the baby’s diaper, the baby pulls a number two, and the odor is so bad that you have no choice but to turn around and change the baby because waiting for the daycare to do it is out of the question? How come your sick child always manages to throw up on the carpet in front of the bathroom? Or when you clean your home and it looks just perfect for company, but there are no shows, but the minute your kids tear it apart, the doorbell rings. A great one is when you are all dressed up to go out and a sticky or dirty hand makes it on your clothing. Children are attracted to your best clothes like a magnet. How come when you go to the bathroom everyone needs your full attention? How about the minute you set down to have a moment to yourself? The other ironic twist is that even though Dad is around, the kids need Mom.
Previous examples of Murphy’s Law That Have Forced Me to Be a Victim
• Your child gets sick and you have a presentation to give at work, and dear daddy is nowhere to be found.
· You are running late and you forget the children’s lunches
· The baby spits up on your shirt and you don’t notice it until after that important presentation that you were already late for and had to run out of because you have to drop that sick child off at your mother’s.
· The only time you find a close parking spot when you get to the grocery store is when you have none of the children with you.
· Your noisy neighbor (That stay at home mom that makes everything from scratch and has that spotless home – you know her. Yes, the mom with the polite children that look and act nothing like yours!) only comes over when your kids have turned your living room into Fort Knox.
· One of the kids gets sick before Christmas – right about the time you have run out of sick days and you end up having to borrow a vacation day, or two or three or in my case, four, from the upcoming year.
· How about when you send your child to school, knowing all too well, that they are sick, and praying the school nurse does not call, but sure enough, she calls the minute you arrive at your desk.
For more on Murphy’s Laws, check out Murphy’s Laws of Parenting HERE.
What about you? Have you been a victim?
That Super Mega Dad over at The Adventures of Super Mega Dad is one heck of a character. Okay, I am down with getting the Keepsake Blog Award and I am very thankful. (Super Mega Dad got his award from Otter Thomas over at Life of a New Dad.) However, I was not sure if I was up for the task of sharing a “keepsake moment” with you. Yes, I have had many, but I was not sure if any were blog worthy. Besides, blogging about a keepsake moment means wearing my heart on my sleeve and I have been doing that a lot more lately, thanks to Rheumatoid Arthritis and Fibromyalgia. So here is one that truly holds a place in my heart and just a warning, keep the Kleenex nearby.
Around Thanksgiving last year I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis. At the time, the baby was two and half months, and I figured that there was no reason for me to be swelled up over two months after giving birth. The diagnosis was hard for me and it took me awhile to talk to my husband about it, and I wanted until all of our Thanksgiving guests parted that evening, and sat my husband down. I knew that my husband did not know anything about RA so I had to break down from what I had been reading on the internet. My husband didn’t really give me a response and just kind of moved on. Nothing usual about that, that is just the way my husband is.
My nine year old had been listening and he knew how difficult my pregnancy was because of the pain and how difficult it had been for me since the baby was born. The pain made it difficult to carry the baby and especially when I had to get up in the middle of the night. Mornings were even worse because it took me at least a half hour to get my stiff feet and legs moving. Let me tell you that my nine year old is no sucker; he is intelligent beyond his years and for a long time, it was just me and him.
Back to my keepsake moment, my nine year old, who was supposed to be sleeping, heard the entire conversation. He came to my bed the following morning and asked if I needed any help and I told him that I just needed some time to get up and out of bed, but I did not need any help. The next thing that came out of my nine year old’s mouth took me by surprise. He took my hands and told me that “we will get through this together like we always have.” Let me honestly tell you that my nine year old is my rock and he always has been. When I say he is intelligent beyond his years, it is the truth. He is a smart, kind and good kid and I am lucky, and someday, he will make some lady very happy.
Now, comes the tough part. I am supposed to place the torch/award along to some of my fellow bloggers. Now, don’t get me wrong, I love you all, but I am only going to pick five of you today. (I do not want to tick too many people off.)
And the Award goes to:
Yaya at Yaya Stuff. Ya-Ya’s the best. Go visit her blog if you don’t believe me.
Brandy at Not Your Average Soccer Mom. It looks like Brandy is currently on vacation, but I am sure she will accept her award gracefully (well, as graceful as Brandy can be) when she gets back.
Last, Overwhelmed Working Mom, who has either been too busy to blog or having a dry spell. That is what happens when you work in the legal profession.
Okay, everyone, accept your awards and get to blogging! Don’t forget to copy the picture of the award and attach it to your blog page.
1. Man in the Mirror
2. Black or White
3. We are the World
4. Off the Wall
6. Beat It
7. Rock With You
8. Human Nature
9. Say, Say, Say w/Paul McCarthy
10. You are Not Alone
11. They Don’t Care About Us
12. Smooth Criminal
13. Rockin Robin
Michael, You will be missed! R.I.P.
What are your favorites? Please share.