Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don’t, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
I am sure most of you have seen the above quote on my blog page and even in some of blog posts. Lately, I have found myself questioning who I am because I feel like I have become a different person, a person that I somehow might not be proud of. I have spent the last few months dwelling on our money issues, my ailments, and my attorney assignment from hell at my job. I had a baby in September and my pregnancy wasn’t the greatest. In the last year, I feel like I stopped being happy and it may have had an affect on my nine year old. Since his last physical (a year ago this time), he has gained twenty pounds and he has become overweight for his age. His most recent physical was this past Saturday and his pediatrician told me that I need to do something about his weight. The way he said it was like a stab in the heart.
Where have I been for the last year? When did I start being the kind of mother who doesn’t care? I may say that I care and I may shower my children with hugs and kisses, but the fact that I let my child’s eating habits get out control and stopped focusing on his being active proves otherwise. Yes, I had so many other things going on all at once, but THAT IS NO EXCUSE. I have become the mother that I told myself I would never become – the lazy, laid back, thoughtless kind that somehow thinks her kids will be just fine without intervention. I used to be a hands-on mom and I got lazy. I even gained weight myself and stopped caring about my own appearance.
The more I thought about the situation, the more I realized that my life is what I make it. My kids lives revolve around me and the actions that I take affect them profoundly. So, I am going to stop dwelling on the things I can’t control and take care of the ones I can. I have got to go back to being the mother I was before. That starts with setting examples for my children and being more supportive and hands-on. It is time that I practice what I preach.
So today, Monday, April 6, 2009, this is my promise to myself and my children. My goal is to lose 40 pounds, 20 for myself and 20 for my son. I am going to start cooking healthier, shopping healthier, and I am going to become more active and to support my nine-year old more in getting back to eating healthy and exercising regularly. Most importantly, I am going to stop dwelling on the things I cannot control and focus on the ones I can.