#HAWMC Day 5: Ekphrasis Post: Peace and Beauty


Today’s Prompt. Go to flickr.com/explore and write a post inspired by the image. Can you link it to your health focus? Don’t forget to post the image!

This photo is titled The Colours of Autumn. The waterfall is located in the Japanese Garden of Tasmania’s Botanical Gardens and is so beautifully designed and peaceful.

This photo stood out to me because at this point in my health journey, I finally see beauty and peace all around me. The past year was of emotional growth for me.  Peace came when I least expected to. It came when I was all cried out and when the laughter was the only thing available to me.  I have cried for what I have lost in the past few years including former good health and my brother.  I have cried as a result of my weaknesses and failures. I have learned that I am all human and the obstacles I have overcome are proof that.  When all was said and done, I laughed because I had run out of tears and also because I finally saw the light at the end of the tunnel.

All I know is that peace comes to us when we least expect it. The hardships I have endured have forced me to look inside and to find peace within myself and to actually see the beauty around me. Peace and beauty can come in the form of trees swaying in the wind, a smile from a friendly face or in the sound of children laughing.  We have to make the effort to look for opportunities of peace and beauty that are all around us. The moments that we seek allow us to see that life can be good despite all the wrong in the world.

In all the chaos that became my life over the past few years and since chronic illness became a part of it, I started to find bits and pieces of the beauty and peace that I had been desperately seeking.  However, I didn’t always understand what that meant and that was because I had such a busy life that I often lost track of what I was looking for.  

These days I know that finding peace means looking more compassion and integrity in daily life. I see beauty in all that humanity offers. I can find in a friendly smile, laughter, in doing good deeds and in watching others do good deeds.  There is good in the world but it is not always easy to see when the bad seems to impact us more than the good.  Finding beauty and peace means merely taking the time to enjoy the simplicity that life has to offer.

Life has beautiful moments of peace and these are the moments that stand still.  It is our choice to decide if we want to see them, experience them and embrace them.  My health journey would not have come full circle if I had not taken this opportunity so see the beauty of life and how the world around is so beautifully and peacefully illustrated.  I have learned that the path to peace is always available to us but we have to be willing to open up our hearts to understand the precise message we are given.  It has taken me a long time to fully understand and grasp this message but I am glad that I finally have.  Maybe it is a choice or stronger belief in the Almighty but I am finally making sense of all the chaos that is my life.   

 

About Lana

I will start by saying that my blog is about who I am and how I have grown, preserved, and endured since being diagnosed. I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis (RA) and fibromyalgia (FM) nearly five years ago after many years of dealing with symptoms that no doctor could explain. All I wanted was closure and, to me, that meant finding an answer to why I didn’t feel normal. Several days after having my now almost five year old, I awoke to the inability to walk or use my hands and within a week, I finally had a diagnosis and this time, it sank in that it was real thing. Steroids, a lack of energy, and physical pain take a toll on you. What the illness does to us, we cannot control. How we respond, how we choose to fight back, and how we go on is our defense against the war waging inside of us. Imagine being in a dark room and trying to make your way around. Then, imagine that you find a light switch and the room becomes dim, not bright, but enough for you to navigate your way. For years, I was in the dark about what was happening to me, and then one day, the room became dimly lit. What I wanted was closure but instead I found that there were more questions than there were answers. I learned that I had to change my perceptions on what closure meant to me and in this case it meant accepting that chronic illness was now a part of my life. One of the things that I do know is that I am not alone and that there were so many exceptional people who, like me, are looking for closure, answers and normalcy. I share my experiences because I want to live a “normal” life and I want others to see that it is okay to have a normal life and to keep dreaming, trying, believing and looking towards the future. I write about my life with RA and FMS, my diagnosis, and my quest to find answers and I continue to do so because when it gives others hope it gives me hope too. I have found through my experience and the experiences of others dealing with the same conditions that living with arthritis and/or an autoimmune disease gets easier even though the disease gets harder. RA and FM may control how I physically feel but they do not control who I am or how I choose to respond. It is never going to be easy and some days, the emotional part is worse than the physical but we all struggle with something and for me, it is RA and FM.
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